I know that I am never going to meet you,
but my love for you grows stronger every day.

I know that I have failed as a woman,
no matter what everyone tries to say.

I want to understand why this is happening,
to find a way forward in such a dark hole.

I want to accept this for what it is,
but I wont, because it’s taken over my soul.

I hope the tears will stop one day soon,
so you and I can rest together.

I hoped that this wouldn’t be the case,
but in my heart you will live forever.

Samantha Musgrave
6/3/16